The worst part about being at your breaking point is that to the rest of the world,处于崩溃边缘最糟糕的部分是对外界来说。
it looks like you're doing absolutely nothing.看起来你什么都没做。
You're in bed all day.你整天躺在床上。
You're scrolling on your phone for 12 plus hours.你在手机上滑动超过12个小时。
You're not getting outside.你没有出去。
You're isolating yourself.你正在孤立自己。
And so everyone else just sees that you're unproductive and lazy.所以其他人只是看到你无所事事且懒惰。
But on the inside, you are desperately searching for an answer.但在内心深处，你正拼命寻找答案。
Sometimes it wasn't even that long ago before you had it all together,有时候，就在不久之前，你还一切都掌控得很好。
where you didn't feel like life was happening to you.那时你不会觉得生活是在发生在你身上。
You felt like you were in control.你感觉自己掌控了一切。
You know you had your routine.你知道你有自己的日常安排。
You were consistent.你很有恒心。
You were going to the gym.你去健身房了。
You were socializing.你在社交。
Your diet was right and it was good for some time.你的饮食是正确的，并且持续了一段时间。
It was really good and you felt like you were in this like sort of flow state.那真的很好，你感觉自己处于一种类似“心流状态”的状态中。
Things were effortless.事情变得轻而易举。
And then something changed.然后事情发生了变化。
Something flipped.事情突然改变了。
One morning you just didn't feel like getting out of bed like you did the day before.有一天早上，你就是不想起床，就像前一天那样。
And then the cycle starts and it gets worse and it gets worse and it gets worse.然后循环开始了，情况越来越糟，越来越糟，越来越糟。
And maybe it's been a matter of days.也许这只是几天的事情。
Maybe it's been weeks, months.也许已经是几周，几个月了。
The thing that you must understand, because I've been there, trust me,你必须明白这一点，因为我经历过，相信我。
I still experience these phases, there is this—我仍然经历这些阶段，就是这样——
The reason that sometimes you can't understand why you're in the state that you're in right now有时候你无法理解自己为什么处于现在的状态的原因
is because you're trying to find the answer in some logical form,是因为你试图以某种逻辑形式找到答案。
in some pragmatic like mathematical formula of like I did this and then this happened and now I'm like this.以某种务实的、类似数学公式的方式，比如我做了这个，然后发生了那个，现在我就是这样。
And perhaps that's the case sometimes, but a lot of times it's not.也许有时候确实如此，但很多时候并非如此。
A lot of times just something shifts internally and the energy is different.很多时候，内心会发生某种变化，能量也会不同。
And You lose the motivation and you feel disconnected from your vision and your passion.你会失去动力，感觉与你的愿景和热情脱节。
And the things you used to love just don't that you don't love them the same right now.你曾经喜欢的东西现在不再像以前那样喜欢了。
The reason that is because there are natural tides to life.原因是生活中有自然的潮汐变化。
I often describe them as the waves of the ocean.我经常把它们比作海洋的波浪。
You know, they come and they go.你知道，他们来了又走。
And as human beings, it's within our nature to want to grasp onto the things that we want,作为人类，我们的天性就是想抓住我们想要的东西。
the good times, and desperately push away and reject the bad times.美好时光，我们拼命推开并拒绝糟糕的时光。
Given that I've been through my fair share of these ups and downs, to say the least,鉴于我经历了不少这些起伏，至少可以这么说。
the greatest understanding that I've taken away from these experiences is that—我从这些经历中获得的最大领悟是——
Regardless of what state you're in right now, maybe you're at absolute rock bottom.无论你现在处于什么状态，也许你正处于绝对的谷底。
It's never been this bad before.以前从未这么糟糕过。
Or maybe the cycle is just starting.或者这个循环才刚刚开始。
Regardless, there is a mountain that you are climbing in life.无论如何，你在人生中都在攀登一座山。
You're after something.你在追求某样东西。
There is a reason that you desire a better life for yourself, whatever that may look like for you.你渴望更好生活是有原因的，无论那对你来说是什么样子。
You want more freedom.你想要更多自由。
You want more control.你想要更多掌控。
You want more clarity.你想要更清晰的认识。
You want more love.你想要更多的爱。
You want more gratitude.你想要更多的感激之情。
You want more adventure and spontaneity and creativity and passion in your life.你想在生活中拥有更多的冒险、自发性、创造力和激情。
These things are difficult to obtain.这些东西很难获得。
And that's the nature of them.这就是它们的本质。
And so if that is the mountain, it doesn't matter if you have it together right now or not.所以如果那就是那座山，那么你现在是否一切都井然有序并不重要。
Because either way, you haven't left the mountain.因为无论如何，你还没有离开那座山。
If last month you were running up that thing like you knew it like the back of your hand如果上个月你跑上那东西，就像你对它了如指掌一样
and it was effortless, man, you had clarity in your direction, you're controlling,而且那很轻松，伙计，你对自己的方向很清晰，你在掌控。
you knew exactly which steps to take.你确切知道该采取哪些步骤。
Maybe right now it's time to stand still for a little bit.也许现在是时候静止一会儿了。
And it doesn't mean that you've given up at all.这并不意味着你已经放弃了。
It actually means the complete opposite.实际上它的意思完全相反。
Okay, I'm flipping the script on you guys.好吧，我要颠覆你们的想法。
It means the opposite.它的意思是相反的。
If you ask somebody, "Hey, you see this tallest most gargantuan mountain that exists,如果你问某人，“嘿，你看到这座最高最大的大山了吗。
which is the mountain of life,那就是生命之山。
do you think I could run up that thing like constantly and not take breaks or not be tired or not have moments of rest?你认为我能一直不停地跑上那座山，不休息、不感到疲倦，也没有休息的时刻吗？
Do you think I could just fly up that thing effortless with no mistakes, no standstill?"你认为我能毫不费力地飞上那座山，没有错误，没有停顿吗？
I mean, like, they would look at you absolutely insane because it's like, it's of course not.我的意思是，他们会觉得你完全疯了，因为当然不是那样的。
Like, no, I mean, you're human.就是说，不，你是人类。
There will be some parts that are easy along this journey, my friend.在这段旅程中，有些部分会很容易，我的朋友。
There will be beautiful moments, but sometimes it's gonna get treacherous.会有美好的时刻，但有时会变得危险。
Sometimes you're gonna get absolutely lost.有时你会完全迷失方向。
Sometimes you're going to run into some things that you were not anticipating at all.有时你会遇到一些你完全没有预料到的事情。
And sometimes you'll even question your own ability to climb this dang mountain.有时候你甚至会怀疑自己攀登这座该死的山的能力。
At the start, you were so confident.一开始，你非常自信。
You know, you set that vision.你知道，你定下了那个愿景。
You painted the picture for the life that you wanted.你描绘了你想要的生活蓝图。
And that first step was, man, I mean, you can't replicate that.而那第一步，伙计，我是说，你无法复制那种感觉。
You know what I mean?你知道我的意思吗？
But inevitably, no matter how prepared—但是不可避免地，无论多么准备充分——
I don't care who you are, no matter how prepared you are, no matter how put together you are, no matter how knowledgeable you are—我不在乎你是谁，无论你多么准备充分，无论你多么镇定自若，无论你多么有知识——
Man, some of the greatest minds in philosophy, the most wise people to ever exist on planet Earth,伙计，一些哲学界最伟大的头脑，地球上曾经存在过的最智慧的人们。
they've experienced some of the most grueling suffering that you could imagine.他们经历过你能想象到的一些最严酷的痛苦。
Some of the most brilliant minds, the people that you would think like, man, they just had it on easy mode.一些最聪明的人，你会觉得，伙计，他们简直是轻松模式。
They just got it right away.他们立刻就明白了。
They had the cheat code or something, but it's just not the case.他们有作弊码什么的，但事实并非如此。
Like it's hard not to feel alone.感觉很难不孤单。
And like, you've got it the worst sometimes, like, man, does anybody else feel this pain?而且，有时候你是最糟糕的，伙计，还有别人感受过这种痛苦吗？
Like to this degree?像达到这种程度吗？
But it is a shared human experience.但这是一种共同的人类体验。
And honestly, I think it's i think it's beautiful.说实话，我觉得这很美。